Grammy for Best Vaporpop Album

Duck: wow. this is so amazing, and so unexpected... *squeal/sob* well, first and foremost i'd like to acknowledge and thank my partner in crime, my friend MANBO who couldn't join us tonight- she's overseas on location for her next film, but she's, like, TOTALLY here in spirit. i'd also like to thank Richie "Beefcake" Kim for producing our first record- Beefy, you inspired us to be the rockstars we knew we could become. We love you!! and of course thank you to the academy, to all of our fans, our wonderful supportive family, friends, lawyers, agents and make-up artists who never stopped believing in us... that is, except for you, Suzie... and our parents... and most of our close friends, but we forgive you!! and -- huh? no i'm not done yet. wha? do i get orchestral background music???! kewl... oh no no, wait... i'm not done thanking people!!! stop the music!!!!! nOOOoooooo..........

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vaporpop... as in, vaporware \VAY-per-wair\ noun

: a computer-related product that has been widely advertised but has not and may never become available

31 to zip... go cardinal?!?!

andy and i went to the stanford-ucla game at the rose bowl last saturday night... it was a total rout, and half the time i was fearing for my life as we were seated in the heart of bruin territory up in the nosebleeds... but it was pretty awesome to be at a college football game again.

in case you were wondering, he didn't wear blue to be ornery and traitorous to his gf's alma mater... we were planning on buying a stanford sweatshirt at steve&barry's before the game, but were obviously thwarted. i just realized i have very little in the way of school-spirited clothing...... no red anything! must remedy situation.......... though it's not like i'll have another bowl game to worry about anytime soon. :P

ah well. guess i'll be rooting for michigan this year, as my school has left me with very little to root for. GO BLUE! ;)

discovered another yummy option in old town pasadena: le pain quotidien. fresh and healthy options that don't make you regret choosing food that's good for you.

yaaaaaaaaay

i looooooooove fourth year. love, love, love it. yes, in the "i-wanna-spend-the-rest-of-my-life-which-i-hope-is-a-very-long-time-with-you" sense. tomorrow, after a brief hour of grand rounds (lecture), i'm done for the day. DONE. and the day after that, i'll be done by 2:30pm. i barely know what to do with myself. shall i pick up new hobbies like mountain biking or scrapbooking, or shall i revive my old hobbies like rollerblading or crocheting? shall i concern myself with household chores, like putting away the clean laundry that has been sitting in hampers for a month? shall i get a carwash to wipe away the months of grime that have accumulated on my poor used-to-be-charcoal-grey-now-dun-colored ride? ahhh... so much to do, and so much time. fourth year rocks.

It is Finished

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Marathon

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Rampant, Glorious & Guiltless Senioritis

under pressure

my test (step 2 ck) is coming up, this friday the 15th. please pray for me.

but in happier news, i met the parents. yep. andy's parents. they just left for michigan again yesterday, actually. and out of the 7 nights they were here, i ate dinner with them for 6.

i survived, by the grace of God. ;)

the training for the 10K is going in fits and starts, but i'm hoping to get my runs in more regularly after the test.

i cannot wait until i finish my tests and turn in my applications. i am going to ENJOY this senior year thoroughly and audaciously. cuz, ya know what? i think i've earned it.

time flies..

i can't believe it... one month passed by so quickly. and yet, so slowly. funny how paradoxical one's time perception can be. anyhoo, it's quite quite quite good to be home. as much as i'd like to think of myself as a freedom-lovin' jetsetter... as they say, home is where the heart is, and it's not very fun to be away from one's heart for too long.

so, thought i'd do a brief overview of my UCDavis/Sacto memories:
1. visiting younch & richie for tea at samovar, then dinner/dessert/dancing in the castro all in the name of meeting younch's "new" bf (he passed the initial tests ;) )... followed by brunch at cafe brioche with julip&sam ... man, i wish i coulda spent more time in the bay area :(
2. for the record, i was there on what was essentially a month-long interview for the family/psychiatry combined residency program. the outcome? well, i guess i'll only know in march when i figure out of they ranked me or not, but .... i'm pretty happy with the feedback i received. let's leave it at that. ;)
3. discovered my new favorite comfort drink: bowl of soul at tupelo/the naked lounge... chamomile tea, soy milk, honey, and foam topped with cinnamon. soooo tasty.
4. (almost) completely exhausted my list of "dvds to see" with a monthly pass at hollywood video, which included: brick, tsotsi, mad hot ballroom, nanny mcphee, failure to launch, sarah silverman: jesus is magic, akeelah and the bee, water ... holy crap, i definitely milked that pass for all it was worth.
5. window-shopped my little heart out at the regional outlets in folsom and vacaville; not much to actually BUY, but plenty to think about buying ;)
6. got served my first meal at a korean restaurant by a non-korean. i wouldn't recommend it. at least, not if you're as snobby as i am (i.e. care if the waiter thinks you ordered kimchi-jigae vs. dwenjang-jigae because he doesn't speak korean)
7. marvelled many times at the folly of men (especially one) who think they're attractive... or at least attractive enough to have a chance with a truly attractive woman (my roomie), when they are actually quite repellant and/or 50+ years old
8. visited 3 different churches, heard pastor doug batchelor at one of 'em, but didn't get a SINGLE potluck lunch... odd, odd month. ;)

blah.

i dunno what it was... but for some reason, this afternoon i got a whole bunch of axis II (personality disorder) patients. two women who talked my ear off and nearly drowned me in their treacherous oceans of self-pity, and one really, really, really weird dude. the guy wouldn't give me a chief complaint, then clammed up and wouldn't tell me anything because, as he put it, "i'll just wait for the doctor". now, you must understand, as a med student, that's probably one of the most frustrating things to hear... for many reasons. first of all, the reality is that med students will listen to patients much more carefully and for a much longer period of time than any "doctor" ever will... partially because the most valuable resource we can offer is time, as opposed to experience. secondly, those comments just echo whatever measure of self-doubt i harbor as a student, and ultimately serve to undermine the "therapeutic relationship". but most of all, i just felt rejected. nevermind that it was by a nutty sociopath... i try my darnedest to get my patients to like me, and it still bothers me when they don't. yeah... so i have my own issues.

i felt so drained. completely exhausted. i can't imagine having a close family member or friend with a serious psych disorder.... i dunno how these people manage to have ANY close acquaintances. of course, the sad part is, most of them don't. it's days like this that make me fantasize about having my own practice and weeding out the patients i don't wanna see.
i don't wanna sell out, but it sure is tempting sometimes.

studying hard or hardly studying?

cafe flore, san francisco

top 5 moments of the week

5. getting some good feedback from my attendings... my very own sally field moment ("you like me, you really like me!?!")

4. googling my roommate's potential blind date, then laughing hysterically at his headshot for 15 minutes (i know, i'm mean)

3. discovering sacto's farmers' market on sunday mornings, all bustling, vibrant, fresh and cheap

2. finding out that my car is FINALLY outta the shop (german efficiency my A$$! :p)

1. a lively discussion about how lois lane might have reacted to getting knocked up without knowing who the father was, and who exactly is the bitchiest queen on project runway with two lovely psych interns

sac-town blues

today was the first day in a LONG time that i ate all of my meals alone.

i'm lonely already. i miss andy/home. my tolerance/enthusiasm for traveling (solo) has dwindled down to practically nothing. and to think, this is the same girl who flew off to south america alone, four years ago. jeez, i can't even take a road trip up to sacramento without moping. it's so true... relationships change you, make you weak. sigh. anyway, i'm hoping that i'll be able to channel my melancholy into true productivity... so much to do, so much.

when i met my new roommate for the month, i realized that it's been a long time since i've had to meet a new person.. socially, that is. i felt pretty darn weird... i guess it's kinda like riding a bike- you never really forget how to interact with people, but you're pretty wobbly for awhile when you start it up again.

so my neighborhood is in the middle of nowhere, but surrounded by lots of new housing and yuppie shopping centers... kinda like rancho cucamonga. haven't had a chance to really explore sacramento yet, but i'm hoping to see more of the city in my quest for free wifi in coffeeshops. i have to say, it is sorta exciting.... if i am so fortunate as to get a spot up here for residency.... this could be my new home for the next 5 years! sigh. i'm getting ahead of myself. i'm just gonna try to get through this crucial week of first impressions. we'll see where it goes from there.