these past few weeks have been crazy. a whirlwind of activity and change, if you will. these days, i feel like dorothy must have felt when she first stepped into that technicolor dreamland of oz... completely lost, exhilarated, terrified and ecstatic at the same time.
"the fiancee" and i pretty much spent (what feels like) the majority of our 2 weeks of christmas break in various vehicles of transportation. flew back and forth from michigan. witnessed the crash-and-burn of the michigan football team. (at least i learned the fight songs! not quite as awesome as the "give-'em-the-ax" cheers o' my alma mater, but decent) drove up the 101/PCH to ventura for an interview, then explored a bit of the gorgeous central coast. continued our drive to sacramento, for several other interviews and dinners. foodie aside: of note, mikuni for a superb hip sushi joint experience, biba for the best osso buco and tiramisu we've ever tasted, ettore's for a mighty tasty fruit tart, and the house of marina mccarron for impeccable, marvelously executed dinner parties.
so. i've been busy. plus, there's that little event coming up in 4 months.... gaaaaaaaah. wedding planning is not NEARLY as glamorous as i thought it might be.... however, i have managed to get quite a bit done. ceremony and reception venues, CHECK. wedding dress, CHECK. bridesmaids' dresses, CHECK. ok... so that's all that i have done thus far.... my anxiety level is ratcheting up every time i look at one of those wedding plan checklists that EVERY bridal magazine seems obligated to provide, in proportion to every unchecked item that "should" have been done 9-12 months in advance. phew... in any case, i think i have my priorities straight. my short-term goal and wish is to avoid the bridezilla complex, but ultimately, all i care about is that i look friggin hot on my wedding day. oh and, that everything goes perfectly. that's all. ;)
then, there's the other little matter of where i'll be for the next 3-5 years of my life. i've never had to experience the gauntlet of multiple interviews before, so it's been an educational and exhausting journey.... almost done, just one more on friday. i've started to let my guard down during interviews, which is a euphemism for random rambling and barely appropriate giggles during conversation, so i think it's just about time to STOP. the residency match is an amazing process, because somehow most people either end up or convince themselves that they've ended up at the right place.... despite this totally superficial and marginally useful ritual of interviews. i guess this is kinda how people must feel about dating- you're both on your best behavior during the first date... then slowly, you let the real and the crazy out little by little. except with the match, you get MARRIED after the first date. and no, there's no option of annulment. you could get "divorced", but it's similarly messy and painful. sigh. it takes a lot of faith.
must force self to sleep now. mental function shutting down. totally regretting that decaf (but there's still some caffeine!!) soy caramel macchiato. hoping to dream of beautiful ruby slippers, and perchance, to find my yellow brick road.
