of all the things that i wanted my wedding day to be (i.e. happiest, bestest day of my life), the thing that i wanted it LEAST to become was/is a deadline. more specifically, a deadline for losing as much weight as humanly/healthily possible. speaking of which, please excuse the grammar and generally funky english- i'm a little sleep and calorie-deprived.
as i was saying before i was so rudely pushed off track by my errant inconsiderate thoughts, i'm a little concerned with the attitude that i've been adopting as of late, regarding body image. namely, wanted to have as little a body for the best image possible. this is not to say that i don't think i need to lose weight- Lord only knows how well i know THAT... but gosh, i'm becoming freakin obsessed.
the thing is, it would be bad enough if i spiraled into a dark hole of fad dieting and carb-starved depression... i just don't want to drag my bridesmaids down with me. and sadly, i find that every single one of them is worried about body image to some extent. i know that nearly every woman is unhappy with some aspect of their bodies, and of course i sympathize, but damn i feel guilty.
ANYHOO, some good has come out of this extreme dieting that i've been going through recently. all this time i just assumed that i wasn't losing weight because of my lack of self-discipline. i somehow cultivated this idea that i was just too "weak-minded" to restrict myself. i've learned these past few days that this is not the case. i'm STRONG, dammit!! this is a freakin revelation... i'm empowered- grumpy as HELL because of carb-restriction- but ready to tackle this mountain (of flesh, as it were) with all flags flying....... (i love me my mixed metaphors)
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
match day festivities... and the hell that followed
i kid, i kid. sicu isn't hell. the absence of andy isn't hell. (he's in jamaica, living it up with jonk on a sims trip, eating authentic jerk chicken) the sleep deprivation isn't hell. but put it all together, and waddaya got? not a happy camper.
anyhoo, to reflect upon a much brighter, happier, shinier time... here's what we did on match day. first, after the breakfast at our school where we received our envelopes, we went to the HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH..
it was andy's first time at disneyland!!! i kept marveling at the fact that something that was so integral and practically archetypal in my childhood was completely absent from his... case in point: he didn't know the "it's a small world" song.
he knows it now.
they totally revamped space mountain and red-hot-chili-pepperized it. i SWEAR it's faster than it was before, and much cooler. or maybe i'm just getting older and more afraid of rollercoasters of any sort. you be the judge.
then, after a day of adventure-fantasy-tomorrow-land wanderings, we found ourselves at my new favorite pre-pantages-show hollywood eatery: magnolia.
we ditched the group dinner with our bajillion friends who also beat the traffic to eat around the pantages, and walked a few doors down to our restaurant. i've been wanting to eat here for a year. and i wasn't disappointed. twas cute, hipster but not poser-ish, with upgraded versions of american comfort food. started with a decent salad. then, we had the yummiest onion rings i've ever tasted, and a meat loaf to DIE for. my fish dish turned out too dry at first, then too raw, so i can't give the full two thumbs-up.... but the vanilla creme brulee at the end cemented magnolia's spot on my top 10 in LA list. PERFECTLY crisp burnt sugar, perfectly smooth texture, yummy berries as garnish... one of the best creme brulees of my life. and i've had MORE than my fair share. i'm such a sucker for the sweets. to add to the hollywood glam factor, andy saw two celebrities at the restaurant- albeit B or C list stars whose names we couldn't remember- but celebrities nonetheless. :)
then.... we topped off our day of celebration with what is NOW on the top of my best musicals list..........
the glitz, the glamour, the talent, the stage design, the costumes, the music, the lyrics, the story, the audience.... one perfect combination. one truly enjoyable and entertaining evening.
it was a great day.
anyhoo, to reflect upon a much brighter, happier, shinier time... here's what we did on match day. first, after the breakfast at our school where we received our envelopes, we went to the HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH..
it was andy's first time at disneyland!!! i kept marveling at the fact that something that was so integral and practically archetypal in my childhood was completely absent from his... case in point: he didn't know the "it's a small world" song.
he knows it now.
they totally revamped space mountain and red-hot-chili-pepperized it. i SWEAR it's faster than it was before, and much cooler. or maybe i'm just getting older and more afraid of rollercoasters of any sort. you be the judge.
then, after a day of adventure-fantasy-tomorrow-land wanderings, we found ourselves at my new favorite pre-pantages-show hollywood eatery: magnolia.
we ditched the group dinner with our bajillion friends who also beat the traffic to eat around the pantages, and walked a few doors down to our restaurant. i've been wanting to eat here for a year. and i wasn't disappointed. twas cute, hipster but not poser-ish, with upgraded versions of american comfort food. started with a decent salad. then, we had the yummiest onion rings i've ever tasted, and a meat loaf to DIE for. my fish dish turned out too dry at first, then too raw, so i can't give the full two thumbs-up.... but the vanilla creme brulee at the end cemented magnolia's spot on my top 10 in LA list. PERFECTLY crisp burnt sugar, perfectly smooth texture, yummy berries as garnish... one of the best creme brulees of my life. and i've had MORE than my fair share. i'm such a sucker for the sweets. to add to the hollywood glam factor, andy saw two celebrities at the restaurant- albeit B or C list stars whose names we couldn't remember- but celebrities nonetheless. :)
then.... we topped off our day of celebration with what is NOW on the top of my best musicals list..........
the glitz, the glamour, the talent, the stage design, the costumes, the music, the lyrics, the story, the audience.... one perfect combination. one truly enjoyable and entertaining evening.
it was a great day.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
oh! the suspense
i will know where i will work, sleep, eat, breathe and live for the next 5 years in T-MINUS 36 HOURS.
it's killing me.
it's killing me.
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