Monday, August 22, 2011

a day in this life...

i find that my memory fails me too often... certainly more often than i'd like for someone under 30. and i'm starting to realize that as my residency draws to a close, i really probably won't remember very much about what it was like apart from vague nostalgic fuzzy bittersweet feelings. so, i'm going to make an effort to document this year in mental snapshots. today, for example...
8:05am- walk in (late) to huddle in clinic where i catch the tail end of a discussion about a recent article documenting anemia due to blood draws in the hospital.
8:15am- am told by my MA that a mien interpreter is not available until noon (while my mien-speaking patient has just been roomed). luckily, i grab another MA to serve as my interpreter to avoid yet another appointment carried out largely with awkward gestures (e.g. how does one ask about hemorrhoids?) and slow, loud talking in an attempt to somehow make myself more understood (which reminds me of an appointment i had with a deaf patient and his sister, who claimed to be an interpreter and whose claims i gradually started to doubt as she basically used the same rudimentary/universal body language/signs that i might have used while again talking loudly and slowly)
9:00am- get an inbox message saying that my nursing home patient, whom i saw last week after she was discharged from the hospital, has been readmitted with a stroke. she's now nonverbal and on comfort care. i'm never going to have a conversation with this lady again.
9:10am- carry out extensive discussion about contraceptive options with a new patient, whom i'll follow for all of 10 months before passing her off to a colleague as i leave. she seems nice, i'm sad that we probably won't see each other very much before i graduate.
9:30am- go out to mollify a patient of mine in the waiting room because she's been waiting 30+ minutes while her insurance status gets sorted out, and at this point i need to reschedule her. she says, "I need meds!" and i oblige.
... and so on, and so forth- i use my breaks in between patients to check emails, send yet another reminder email to my combined residents to RSVP to some event, switch a call, drop off a triplicate, call patients back, write notes, etc... though before lunch one highlight was that i did get to freeze an actinic keratosis off an attending.
12:15pm- i rush out to the cafeteria to grab a sandwich and travel over to the county psych clinic where i'm finishing up a 2 month stint. along the way, i tweak my ankle while navigating a tricky patch of soggy grass in my wedge heels.
12:30pm- utter panic. my computer has been replaced with a shiny new one. which would be otherwise very good news as my old computer operated at the speed of dial-up, however this is NOT good news because i had not backed up my patient files that are sitting in a folder on the desktop of said old computer. a flurry of desperate phone calls to IT ensues. meanwhile, i listen to several messages on my phone from this morning- a typical example: "uh, dr park, i really need to talk to you about my depakote, ok? because i think i might have a seizure and i'm almost out of the medication and the pharmacist told me not to take the medication that you gave me, so i don't know what to do! call me back, ok? please call me back!!?" (note, i am not practicing neurology).
1pm- time to see a new patient!
2pm- new patient out the door, and i'm frantically limping as i haul (haulping?) computer towers that look like the one that was in my office back and forth from where they sit in anticipation of exile to my office. dangit, the new monitor doesn't work with the old towers! i bring back another monitor as well... dangit, it doesn't have the power cord attached! i bring back yet another monitor... and try a tower... and another one... and another one... [life lesson learned- BACK UP FILES]
2:45pm- sweaty, covered in dust, but triumphant. i think i might survive the last few days here in this clinic. next few hours until 5:30pm spent seeing a few patients, writing notes, printing notes, sticking patient labels on notes, fielding telephone calls, faxing refill requests, reviewing labs, punching holes in all papers to put into paper charts, checking my OTHER inbox to make sure it's clear, etc.
... and now, here i sit at midnight, unable to sleep because like an insane person, i never learn that caffeine post-5pm results in insomnia, and the aforementioned gimpy ankle is protesting with the slightest positional change. and that, is another day.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

hello, goodbye


who decided that may/june would be a time for graduations and weddings? and whoever decided on making the start date for residency around july 1st? it makes for a really busy, bittersweet season. hello to new interns, celebrations for new married lives together, but goodbye to friends who are moving on. above, a brief pictorial spread of the graduations from this season- so this year, we hit up our family medicine and psychiatry graduations, as well as the hub's old residency graduation, in addition to our "combined" graduation/BBQ. congrats to all the new grads!!!

all of this graduating makes me really antsy to do the same. *sigh* one more year to go.

Thursday, June 02, 2011

γειά σας! (hello!)

independently, and long before we met each other, the hubs and i put a trip to greece on our bucket lists. last week, as part of our efforts to "enjoy life before babies", we crossed that item off our lists. now, any vacation is in my book a GOOD vacation, but this... was really a GOOD vacation.

we spent the first few days in athens, trekking over the entire city on foot and using the metro. our hotel was in plaka, a fairly touristy neighborhood with souvenir shops and restaurants crowding the narrow streets... and, oh by the way, THE ACROPOLIS smack dab in the middle. we were struck by the juxtaposition of classical, ancient architecture and ruins amidst modern fixtures. every so often we'd turn a corner and find a little square with an impossibly old looking stone arch... i suppose that's how athenians know who's a tourist- the one taking pictures of that old heap of rocks. we also ran into a little class of maybe 2nd graders, having a field trip and learning about history while sitting in the shade of the parthenon. how cool is that??! we of course hiked the Acropolis, visited museums (New Acropolis Museum and the National Archeological Museum were must-sees), the National Gardens, sipped coffee in Syntagma square, watched the changing of the guards in front of Parliament, shopped along Ermou Street, and ate ridiculously well. Gelato nearly every day (it really does taste better in Europe! must be the cows), refined and rustic preparations of moussaka + souvlaki, gallons of olive oil with freshly baked bread, baklava and marzipan goodies... *sigh* i like to think that the hours of trekking made up for the way we ate, though the pounds that we both gained over the week would beg to differ.

then we flew to santorini. when we explore an island, we EXPLORE. we probably drove through all the major roads of the island in our little smart car convertible. we walked basically ALL of the streets of oia and thira (the major cities on santorini), most of them multiple times. we saw ancient thira, the ruins of akrotiri, ancient monasteries (one right next to an apparently radioactive military base), museums with artifacts from 17th century BC, and all sorts of beaches (red, white, black). but, lest one think that this family doesn't know how to relax, we also spent an entire afternoon lounging by the pool. we watched the sunset every single night, usually whilst lingering over a delicious dinner. and oh, the food. santorini is known for their cherry tomatoes, fava beans, white aubergine (eggplant), and we ate copious amounts of all of the above.

at the very end of our trip, we saw a brief glimpse of the rumblings that have been going through the country in the form of a very laid-back "demo" in front of a sleepy government building in thira. otherwise, we would hardly have known that the country was on the brink of insolvency, though the long periods of inaccessibility to shops/restaurants in the afternoon (from about 2pm-5 or sometimes 7pm) hinted at the "work ethic" which may have led to austerity measures. the country is primarily dependent on tourism for the economy, so i suspect we were mostly spared from whatever ugliness may be the reality for greek people... but selfishly, i was grateful. i got my greek adventure, and am having trouble adjusting to the fact that i'm not there anymore. *sigh* perhaps someday, when the as-of-yet theoretical "kids" are learning about greek mythology, we'll be able to go back... God willing.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

This is our 2011 team for the CAFP Battle of the Residents.. and for two years running we have come in second. Third time's the charm?
We drowned our disappointment in Asian fusion food at Betelnut as arranged by Serena, so at least we got a pleasant evening in the city (and a travel mug) for our efforts.


(tim, me, char)

Thursday, April 21, 2011

spring has sprung!

so after the hibernation of night float, I've been happily adjusting to a regular schedule and the ability to enjoy gorgeous spring days... though my nose/sinuses object to the blooming greenery that so delights my eyes. the hubs and i have kept busy, finding hidden tennis courts in the pocket (very secret garden-esque), hiking, planting, exploring napa/st helena/sonoma, all of which i will be very glad to demonstrate through our new and improved pictures (from our new and improved camera) as soon as i find a way to edit down the size of these monstrous files...
june 2012 doesn't seem so far away now that i'm able to enjoy our family's half-attending status and mostly-free weekends. and now i can say that i am DONE with inpatient rotations, forever. so fitting that easter is around the corner- i feel renewed! :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

snippets from the ED

thank you, oh ER schedulers, for scheduling me for 4 full weekends in a row. really appreciated that. especially for making me come in on sunday morning, after spring forward. that was a treat.
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to the lady complaining loudly about me after i leave the room... just because i close the curtain on your narcotic-seeking, symptom-faking self doesn't mean i can't hear you. it's a CURTAIN. and moreover, what you're saying doesn't make me any more likely to give you what you want. might wanna take that into consideration next time you call 911 claiming to have fallen. oh and by the way, the paramedics actually remember that they took to you another ER last week, for the same exact complaint. the psych side of me acknowledges that this is why it's called a personality/substance-use DISORDER, the human side of me is still ridiculously frustrated and disgusted.
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i am more determined now than ever to discuss end of life care with my family and patients. coded an 86 year old Asian grandma yesterday who collapsed in the hallway before even being roomed in the ER. as i stood on a stool over her, pounding her chest as her horrified family sobbed in the hallway, i thought... why? and, this is really not the way life should end.
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on a happier note, i think that the ER folks are kinda like brothers/sisters from another mother to FP folks. but also like siblings who wonder how they could have come from the same parents sometimes.
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as happy as i will be to be done with calls and night shifts FOREVER, i must say that my absence has inspired the hubs to great culinary heights. there really is nothing like coming back after a 12+ hour shift to a home-cooked meal.
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i've been very impressed by the ER staff's growing familiarity and expertise with dealing with psychiatric emergencies. am the opposite of impressed by what this says about the state of mental health care in our county.
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2 weeks of jeopardy, and 2 weeks of night float then i'm done with inpatient rotations foreva. BRING IT ON!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

you mean money doesn't grow on trees?

the hubs is working hard for his attending salary... i'm a kaiser widow tonight. here's hoping that this doesn't become a habit. i think i'd much rather be a golf widow.

night and day

after three 7pm-7am shifts in a row, i suppose it is too much to ask to adjust back normally in one day to a regular work-hour circadian rhythm. sigh.

this ER rotation has catalyzed a transient role reversal between me and the hubs, however... one that i am not minding in the least! cooking is usually my responsibility, but given that i am essentially useless and unable (or unwilling) to do anything but stuff my face and sleep when i'm at home in between shifts, my intrepid hubby has taken up that mantle- at least over the weekend. i've been so happy to come home to hearty home-cooked breakfasts, and waking up to eat a healthy dinner before my shift... all prepared by the hubs himself. notable differences in our cooking styles- he's a lot more conscious/parsimonious with salt and fat. his menu choices tend to be driven by whatever was on sale at the market. he tends towards simple, clean presentation. all excellent contrasts to what he calls my "taste-driven" style (i.e. whatever tastes good, and damn the cost/calories). oh, i am so grateful... and making a point of showering him with lots of positive reinforcement ;)

Sunday, February 13, 2011

a cure for cynicism

multiple nights of good rest, sunshine, tasty eats and plenty of quality time with the hubby make for a much less cynical/jaded me. this year might not be so bad after all! so far, my 2011 has been marked by my tentative entry into social networking (which is actually a sign of a triumph over SCMHTC-induced paranoia about stalker-ish psych patients), a renewed commitment to de-jabba-fying myself (i.e. reducing my resemblance to jabba the hut), and a dawning realization that my time as an indentured servant (i.e. residency) is indeed growing shorter. and after all, what are my minor upsets in the face of tectonic shifts in the world, where revolution is a reality and freedom is a struggle?
the big picture. so hard to see sometimes... but always worth the effort.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

sleep-deprived cynical musings (take with grain of salt)

"Do you not know, my son, with how little wisdom the world is governed?"- Count Axel Oxenstierna

after a year of NOT being sleep deprived, i suppose it's natural to expect a little... adjustment in both body and soul when stepping back into the life of late-night calls and long clinic days... but somehow i feel that irrespective of my current rotation or sleep debt, i would still feel the same way. and that is, that it kinda sucks to be a grown-up. one realizes that the other grown-ups don't know what they're doing. maybe it's because i'm on a peds rotation now, but i'm really getting nostalgic for the days of blissful childhood ignorance. hell, i'd settle for blissful early 20s ignorance even if it meant taking on all of that collegiate/med school frenetic angst. anything to distract from what is looking increasingly like a bleak reality.